I am not perfect. I have sinned against God but perhaps I made an impact in other people’s lives because they see Christ in me.
I knew God forgave me and that He felt my sincerity asking for His forgiveness.
The storms I experienced in life were not easy to deal with. It left deep scars that kept me broken for years. How did I survive? It’s a long process but when I looked back, I can’t believe how I cope up and be able to rise up again.
During those painful times, I felt God’s presence as He directed me to the right people supported and never gave up on me. I saw Christ in them.
As I listened to brother AJ Perez, who was the speaker/preacher last Saturday night, July 29, 2017 at SM lanang Cinema 6, past memories suddenly dawned on me. I became emotional at that time but it was not a feeling of sadness but more of happiness.
Brother AJ talked about the scars in our lives. God says He will heal our broken hearts. So he asked everyone, “Why are we celebrating our birthday?.” What is there to celebrate?
I agree with him because we should not think of celebrating the time when we were born. Why shouldn’t we celebrate despite our problems? We think that solutions are still not there. We are wrong. We do not wait for it. The solution to our problems is already answered by God. Celebrate it now because when you pray the Lord is already making a solution to it. “ Do not wait, it is already there”, AJ implied.
He mentioned that God is in our scars. Scars can make us healers. I believe that because these scars truly remind us of His presence. Through this, we can heal others through our brokenness. These scars can make us change, preparing us for what’s to come. These changes are positive: It will make us humble and be faithful to HIM.
Some people are full of pride. They think that they are perfect and do not accept their mistakes. They pretend to be fine when infact they aren’t. They kept this pain for a long time until it becomes hatred. I do not want to be like that. I am not ashamed of my past. I accept it wholeheartedly and moved on. Heroes have many scars and people look up to them forgetting their past. Good things will come as long as we put our trust that God will make everything alright.
People may see me as a very friendly person smiling at anyone I knew but little did they know that I had deep scars. Like brother AJ who shared a bit of his past, I also once committed suicide after I graduated in college because I envied my colleagues who had good jobs afterwards. It took me 6 months to land a job and I got frustrated. I felt so insecure of myself and thought that I will never be successful like them. I didn’t use a knife though but it was just a huge blade. Inside my room, I ended up making small wounds on my arms, hands and legs but there was severe bleeding. My parents were worried after that. Who wouldn’t be? They thought that I was happy and contented since I graduated with flying colors from a prestigious university in our City.
I am healed by God and this time, I would like to show my scars and share it to others. This is what God wants us to do. God will not give us problems we can’t bear. He has plans for us that only He knows. Everything happens in His perfect time. Who are we to question Him.
I chose to be happy. I chose to live life positively. I do not have a perfect life but I know God loves me for who I am. God healed my scars and as I am being healed, I know I can heal others.
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